About this piece: My writers group thinks I've found my voice. Yup, right there at the SunCo Station in Osage Beach, standing in line next to Illustrated Muscle Guy #1 and #2 as they try in vain to visually vaporize the beef jerky display. I should write a book called "Waitin' in Line: Desperate Tales from a Female Traveler".
Watch out Jane, I Have Boots!
I'm strung out on Cohen covers and lapsang tea, my sorrowing mind still in Fulton after an hour plus on the road. I've stopped for gas at the same quick stop that Amber and I used the last time we came back to Kansas, forgetting that it only has the one co-ed bathroom. Lack of sleep has also taken the last of my usual careful attention, so while I know where the exit is, it doesn't register at first that the line to the bathroom is going to take some time. I'm too enamored of the corner of the huge map I see peeking around the hallway corner, sharing the door trim with the bathroom. I understand the need for this kind of map in a metro area, but Osage Beach? How could anyone possibly get lost here? Of course, to me, Osage Beach is just another amber bead on the strand of road that leads to the true pearl: The Fulton/Columbia/JeffCity Triangle. Home.
The line is made up of three guys, all about the same size, and me. Prep Boy, dressed in a buttoned up, blood red polo shirt tucked and belted into pressed khakis is first. I forget Taylor's edict and miss what kind of shoes he's wearing; by the end of this encounter, I'm hoping that they were running shoes, and that he knew how to use them. His tiny, round wire framed glasses only emphasized his small stature and youth.
The next guy has pale, long hair streaming out from under his baseball cap, which he's at least wearing with the bill in front. His plain gray tank top gives me a glimpse of the many tats he has on his well muscled arms and chest. The tank is tucked into old but clean and neat jeans, lending him the look of college kid, vacationing as a construction worker. I check out his shoes. Well worn sneakers.
He's talking to his friend, who also has donned a plain tank, this one pale blue. Ditto on the jeans and sneakers. His hat, I will discover later, hides a nascent brunette mohawk and well shaved scalp. I'm so fascinated by the elongated skull tat sweeping from his shoulder to his elbow on the arm nearest me that I'm not even eavesdropping on his conversation with his buddy.
Which is a shame, as I soon discover. Apparently, Prep Boy thinks my tender, womanly ears needed protection from whatever Muscle Guys are discussing. My first warning of trouble ahead is when I catch, “. . .inappropriate for public.” What? Where? Did I miss something GOOD? are my first thoughts. But Muscle Guy #1 is glaring at Prep Boy, every muscle in his lithe and barely controlled body on edge. “What did you say?” he demands, and even from 4 feet away, I feel the ice in his voice.
“I said, that conversation is totally inappropriate to be having in public.” He hears the bathroom door open just in time, and ducks into the bathroom even as MG #1 says, “Why, I ought to knock your f**king head off!”
He looks uneasy, though, and I notice that both of them do stop talking, choosing instead to practice visual vaporization on a rack of innocent beef jerky. It's tough, it can take it.
In the past, this would be my cue to flee. I don't do confrontation with people I know, much less strangers, but my bladder makes the decision for me. Stay and pee in a few minutes, or get back in the car and suffer the consequences. Anyway, I reason, isn't it time I added “brave” to my list of assets? After all, I have turquoise hair and knock-Jane-Austen-off-her-horse boots. I'm up to this.
Besides, waiting for them to finish beating up Prep Boy so I can have a chance at the bathroom is not in my schedule, not to mention that I really can't stand to see anyone suffer. So, I take a deep breath and ask Skull Arm (a.k.a. “MG#2”), “Did you get your tattoos locally?”, figuring that he'll be like every other illustrated person I've asked about their tats: vocal, enthusiastic, and inclined to forget minor annoyances such as Prep Boy.
Instead of the usual praise of his favorite tat artist/salon/studio, he looks at the floor and gives me a terse, “No.”
I'm a bit taken aback, having expected to do nothing more than nod and say “uh, huh” for the next 5 minutes after this query. Giving myself a pat on the back for having at least tried, I lapse into silence, wondering what reason he had for being so close mouthed about the beautiful art decorating almost every inch of his visible skin.
“We in Fulton yet?” MG#1 asks Skull Arm. He's fiddling with the packages of beef jerky now, perhaps checking to see if they're at least warm to the touch from his efforts to vaporize them. At that point, I realize how very young they are, tough as they are trying to appear.
“Nah. I don't think we're in Fulton, but I ain't got no idea where we are,” says Skull Arm, scratching his tat's septum. The black nasal holes twitch, and for a moment, I fully expect a ghostly sneeze to rend the air.
“You're not in Fulton,” I volunteer. “I just came from there, about an hour from here. You're in Osage Beach. Miles of tourist crap.”
Skull Eyes turns to look at me then. He takes in the turquoise freakstreak, the shell and flower lei bracelets, the denim dress, decides to smile at me. I give it one more shot.
“Coming home from college?” I ask, smiling back.
MG#1 answers me too quickly, and with real longing in his voice, “Don't I wish.”
“Hey,” I say. “You could be like me. I went to the University of Hard Knocks. You can learn whatever you want, wherever you want. Just go for it.”
Skull Arm decides it's time to clear things up, no tiptoeing around the dead pink elephant rotting in front of us. “We just got outta prison.” He looks at me, expecting what? Shock? Horror? Instead, he finds a middle aged woman, who, unknown to him, has a cousin or two of her own serving time. Getting out of prison/jail is almost a family coming of age rite on the maternal side of my family, so I'm not inclined to hold prison time against them. Instead, I said, “So, let me ask you something. I just went with my niece when she got her last tattoo, and she and everyone I talk to swears it doesn't hurt to get a tat. But it looked like it hurt to me. Did getting yours hurt?”
It does occur to me that it might be best to cut and run at this point, but I figure, I've come this far, why not see what happens?
What does happen is that the next few minutes pass as they usually do with illustrated people: prefaced with the standard, “Oh, it doesn't hurt, EXCEPT if you have it done (points to area) here.”, and followed by the pulling up/down/over/off of various items of clothing to better display the masterpieces they've had etched into their bodies. Stories flow of when and why and where and how they got them, permanent reminders of landmark events, or drunken foolishness carved in marbled muscle.
We're having a good time, chatting, when the bathroom door pops open, expelling Prep Boy. He plows right through our little group, muttering, “You guys are the reason women in America don't respect men.” He doesn't have enough conviction nor courage to stand still and say it, nor to say it clearly and loudly enough for me to catch it the first time around. I have to ask Skull Arm to repeat Prep Boy's exit line. I snort.
“Forget him,” I tell MG#1. “Get in that bathroom, there's women here who need to pee!” (At some point, the line has been augmented by another female presence.)
He laughed and headed into the john.
That's when Skull Arm decided to show me his freshly shaven head. He pointed to the ¼ inch tall baby mohawk and said, “When it gets longer, I'm gonna bleach it and dye it bright blue.”
“That's great,” I said, grinning at him. “That's my favorite color.”
“I know,” he said, pointing to my hair. “Nice streak.”
MG# 1 was coming out of the bathroom, so I shooed Skull Arm along with my hands, saying,“Hurry up, hurry up! I gotta pee! Just don't stand there!” Laughing, he went into the bathroom.
That's when I finally took my first deep breath in minutes. Turning to the woman standing behind me, I said, “I believe there's a little piece of good in everyone, don't you? It's just that sometimes you have to dig for it.”
She agreed with me, but then, why wouldn't she?
After all, I have turquoise hair, knock-Jane-Austen-off-her-horse boots, and the courage to help people find their own good pieces.